The dr says there's no reason i can not get back to full strength even with all my injuries if i work for it.

yes. i do need a lawyer i got it strait fomr the social workers mouth.

I was right, they do not care about me picking up scrap to make money. i declared my intention there. 


And I got finally some good information on ticket to work program that was basically incomplee at first. 


I put in the paper work to get a payee cuz i can not control my spending addiction. 

I told her i need a guardian a legal representative to speak for me and she told me how to do that, and tomorow i am busy with getting my home ready to be single and disabled, but the next day i will go to a laywer and get the process started for someone to have power of atterny over me. I have been saying for 12 years i need someone capable of helpng me and my parents were not indifferent to my suffering, they just couldn't an maybe wouldn;t at the time yes, hear the options i was telling them there was. 

We do not know how to talk to each other effectivly but we;re learning. 


i talked to my dr about my injury an what;s going on and we're getting that sorted. I am a little frusterated though because everything she said i already know and told her and basically not a lot got accomplished and i didn't get to adress the most important things. BUT shes putting in the order for a special walker for me so that when i am exhausted and it makes it impossible to walk any more i can, no matter where, safely sit down. 

I came up with several solutions to build coping skills and I am going to get a shirt or wear a sign that says i have ear plugs in i can not heaer you, so when i wear ear plugs to protect my own sanity, that People do not try n get my attention n i litterally can;t hear. 

when things get setled down we're overhauling my whole house to be disabled friendly. that basically means cleaning it up. organizing it and putting things the way a disabled person can best make use of.

i was ToppingfrmBottom, however I dont wish to use that name anymore.

I don't accept blank friendship invites. Please take the time to have gotten t o know me before sending an invite:)

I am a very friendly and bubbly and chatty person, I do hope that you are the same and will want to talk and keep in touch as much as I do. I don't believe in having people on my friendslist I never talk to:)

If we talk, please do not obsess over a single subject, like diapers, BDSM, or sex. it's annoying I don't mind talking about ageplay a lot, or bdsm alot, that's a very varied subject. I just want our talks to be more than just obsession over a single topic and it never changes, variety is the spice of life! after all.

I am almost always childlike, so we may talk often and a lot about little kidlike items, like our stuffed toys, or our days with daddy, or whatever type guardian you have, but that's different from every time I say hi to you, you come out and say so you diapered right now? Or when ya gonna be diapered next? Or did you sleep in diapers.

I don't like monosyllabic replies, "I see" or "ok" or monosyllabic responses that give the impression you really are not interested in me talking to you, to everything I say, it gets annoying and rude fast. I am making an effort to talk to you, you can put the same amount of effort back into replying to me. If you don't know what to say, that's ok, it happens now and then, but if you do it constantly, I WILL stop talking to you, because you're not interesting to talk to.

I have a Daddy , and we've been together for 7 years.

I'll talk and be friendly and whatnot, but this is the only warning you'll get on this subject so please heed it. I am not interested in being your erotic fodder, talking dirty, performing on webcam for you, or other stuff to make you horny or get you off. I am not interested in answering your questions about my sex life, or providing sex life details to wank to.

We live with my parents behind their house in a separate little cottage type set up, I have all the freedom and privacy of any other adult, I/ we come and I/we go as I/ we need to and do as I/ we wish, and they do not pry into the business of our life, so hopefully this little tidbit doesn't put anyone off, and if it does, oh well. That is your issue, not ours.

Let it be known right up front, so if you have any problem with age players, girls who call their partner Daddy, who regress, or for whom this is a very real thing and not make believe or pretend, then I am not interested in hearing your issues.

I would like to find a lady who'd like to spank me on a regular basis, maybe once or twice a week. These are fun spankings, not punishment ones, but they will not be erotic. Keep in mind you'd have to meet my Daddy, and talk to him and be approved before you get anywhere near my behind, and if Daddy doesn’t like you, or approve of you, it's not happening.

I'm 30, a switch, a bottom, and an inner child and kitty cat. I started out identifying as a submissive, but that doesn't fit me, I started realizing I wanted to dominate people, and then after quite a while, I identified as an adult baby but now I identify as an inner child more. I regularly experience an odd disorder. ( Ooh shiny disorder) so often gets distracted and Daddy has to go hunt me down I try to remember but seem to forget why and what I was supposed to do quite regularly.

I'm a really good source of cute stuff links, and resource finds. I window shop a lot, and I'm not afraid to contact sellers on etsy and ask if they'd make a baby item they're selling custom made to fit an adult. I’m always happy to pass on the information of cute adult baby things I find, and even things that are mainstream but shout baby wear to me.

I'm into baby/ young kid stuff, sure, but I'm kind of different from most age players, I like my stuff to be functional every day looking. It doesn't have to scream fetish or have that 'oh my god look at me' to anyone but me, and those in the know, will know of me and my outfit choices.Some people want big foofy ruffles and rumba panties and so short it'd be obscene if it were not for your diapers, but not me.

I am childlike in all aspects of stuff, not just for fetish, or for certain events then it's put away, It's who I am, not what I do, so I want stuff I can wear in day-to-day situations, like to my Daddy's workplace or to the park, or even out with my parents real parents not ageplay not something that's only suitable to wear to age play parties.

When I regress, although in an adult's body, I AM a child, coming from a child's view point and from the emotions of a kid. I expect people to respect that and not step on my feelings if I tell them I’m feeling regressed and vulnerable, or not to try to engage me in adult conversation or dirty talk when I am little. I assume and I hope you wouldn't attempt to talk to biological kids about sex and adult natures, so don't do it to me, just because I have a grown ups body. The body is adult but the regression is that of an actual child.
Whatever issue you may have, you don't bring those issues to my "doorstep" because I simply don't care who has an issue and who doesn't like it.

I am still in many ways emotionally a small child also in my mannerisms and the way I see the world. I have a very nurturing partner, who doesn't mind a childlike in some aspects partner, Daddy is 11 years older than me, enjoys putting the needs of his partner before his and taking care off and providing for the lady he's with. He thinks my childish nature and young at heart ways are adorable.

We have some what of a parental relationship, if not an untraditional one because he doesn't dominate me and I don't submit to him. We just love each other and taking care of each other to the best of our abilities, and calling him Daddy makes both our hearts happy.

So apparently some people assume that just because I want my potential friend and my daddy to know and like each other, and we all go out and do things on the town and we are highly sociable all 3 of us, as well as just me and my friend, because friends do need to go out just them sometimes, that, that some how equates to girls only and the girl has to submit to my Daddy to be my friend.

That is NOT true, nor what I said. I want. I never said to hopefully be great friends and hang out tons, and be socially active, nor have Ie ver hinted it you have to be submissive to my Daddy.

I would hope to be highly socially active Daddy, I and them, be it male, female, submissive or doms. Or a Poly triad, or purple and striped.

You must like animals, because liking animals is a character trait in people that's important to both Daddy and I, disliking animals is a deal breaker, pretty much with us both loving animals as we do. I am a very friendly, bubbly, perky, quirky and outgoing person, open to meeting new friends of any orientation, and new social experiences. I'm not a very private person as a rule, and I really don't believe in tmi (too much information) unless in extreme cases and I seek friendships with likeminded people who are themselves and not very private. Now that doesn't mean every fart, or sex escapade is on display, but those kind of things may come up. Please note I am not really interested in friendships with those who have to clear every given activity and minute and friendship with their dom before we can hang out or be friends, It's way to restrictive for my idea of what a friendship is.

You must be able to show up in public with us, this will not be a bedroom only or discreet only friendship. If you're afraid of being outed, too shy or have some reason why you can not come to public events that may associate you with being kinky, I am sorry but we're not compatible

*You MUST be drug free.* This of course does not apply to any medical prescribed drugs, just illegal drugs and recreational drugs.

*I would like to ask no smokers,* and should we become friends anyway if you do please do not smoke while with me or around me or just before coming to meet me. It's a very offensive habit and frankly one I think stinks.I do not wish to be exposed to it.

NO SEVERE MENTAL ILLNESSES. Or ones that interfere regularly with your life. Serious mental illnesses and ones that interferes with your life regularly are deal breakers. I am sorry to say but numerous past relationships with people who had mental illnesses have burnt me out on being with or around people with serious mental problems.
*You must not be cheating on a spouse, significant other or hiding this from them if you want to create a friendship.

I have no tolerance for cheaters or liars, and my friends must be able to have our friendship out in the light of day if they want to maintain any kind of friendship with me. We'll be discreet, we won't act a fool in public , unless you want to, but you can't be afraid of going down to the local coffee shop or whatever we're doing and being seen with me.

I don't drive, never learned how and with my bad eyesight and other considerations I don't believe it's wise to be behind a wheel. You'd be doing all the driving and I'd help out with gas, or buying lunch when able to, or we'd split the cost of a cab fare if we wished to go somewhere and James was not going too. I don't work, however being on SSI I have my own source of money and I am financially stable. I won't leech off friends, and nobody will have to "pay my way" when we go out. I do not think my career status or not, is any valid reason to base a friendship or not on, However if you have issues with me not working I don't care please just pass me right on up.

I like going to play parties with Daddy; though we don't go very often to play parties, Master's Den is probably one we'll be going to most often if we go. The major events I want to go to will be Kink in the Caribbean in November, happens to be a bit before my birthday to so if we get to go happy birthday me!! SM Odyssey and the Folsom street fair. Eventually I'd like to get to attend the leather Carnival in New Orleans, and go to other events such as the Dark Odyssey in Maryland. Maybe others that we become aware of that interest us, should we be financially and time wise able to go to, will be on the list of must-sees. Please note, just because I dream of these events, don't mean we're going to go, some people think that dreaming of going means we are going.

Travelling is a huge interest of mine, and if it's travel for a BDSM event, and if Daddy can come, well woohoo more fun. It would be lovely to make local friends and find some close enough to get together regularly, without socialization restrictions from their dom, to hang out with, socialize with, go to BDSM events including classes, and things like Folsom street fair with. I don't much care for munches, they tend to be rather boring in my eyes, but I would consider going with friends.

I'm in poor shape physically and I am overweight, I also have a back injury that rears its ugly head every now and again, a slipped disk in the base of my spine causes me a lot of pain and mobility issues, so does my knee not tracking properly, and so because it doesn't track properly it slips out of place and causes pain and weakness and swelling, and invariably causes me to stumble or fall. I don't walk very well any more, so please keep that in mind.

I would like to work on that. So any friends who had a desire in fitness and wanted to go swimming or for walks or other easy for beginners activities would be awesome as well. You could be very into fitness or out of shape and trying to change that as well. Doesn't matter to me:)

I am a fan of horror movies, if you liked them too it'd be nice, because they're the only type of movie I can't get or rarely get any one in my family, including Daddy to watch.

Some of my other interests I enjoy are renaissance fairs, no experience with SCA would like to but so far just the fairs. BDSM events, going out to dinner, trying new alcoholic drinks sometimes while at dinner. Crafting, I do a wide assortment of crafts, Reading, video games, expanding my many collections.
Some of the items I collect are stuffed animals, mainly teddy bears, books, video games, computer games, horse figurines, candles, basically anything that interests me. And of course I have an interest in buying BDSM toys. One day it'd be nice to have room for some of the bigger items.

I enjoy movies, mostly horror like I stated earlier, but not limited to horror alone. I enjoy comedy, kids movies, and fun easy going movies, etc.

I'm interested in all kinds of outdoor activities such as camping, going to the lake, nature walks, ect, but currently am not involved in any such activities though I'd very much love to be. I just would like to share those activities with a group of friends, and well right now, there's a severe lack of people to go with. I'm also into photography, and I love to take digital pictures, and I think I have a good eye for what'd be a good photo, and I enjoy that hobby very much. I am an amateur at that hobby, since I don't know things like shutter speed and ISO and stuff, but I've gotten a lot of compliments on the pictures and subjects I photograph.

Just a heads up, I dislike loud noises, loud music, noise for noise’s sake”, i.e, having the radio on just cause you can't stand silence and I most especially hate being trapped with it i.e. in a car while you're driving or in offices or dining establishments. My ears are very sensitive, and after a short while my head begins to hurt, so please, if you like loud noises crowded busy loud places, or loud music, be aware that I am sensitive to such environments and try to respect that.
So if we're hanging out and I ask you to turn it down or express a need for quiet, it's not because I am rude, or trying to put down anyone’s tastes in music, IF I ask you to turn it down or if we could turn it off for a bit, it truly is disagreeable to me and most likely is having a negative effect on me. After a while of being surrounded by noise I can't get away from or have no choice of being subjected to I begin to feel agitated an stressed, and it can bring on, or worsen a headache or migraine.