So It has been two days since I have been back to my house but I am thinking about going today.

Well this house Is a real wreck and I know that I can not handle it all on my own So I will do what I can and still hope to find a job yet and hope to hire this work out.

O.K. I just shot/injected myself with hormone's of the Like birth control type 300mg 150 in each ass cheek!!! so that I hope will keep my levels more on the lady like side than on the manly side. and i hope to find a job soon doing what ever I can find!!! and hope that it is closer to lake county than here but right now I will take any thing anywhere in In or Ill.I am also hoping to do the hormones once a month and find a doctor that will take me through the process to becoming a woman. but anyway, each of those is a 3 month supply for a woman to stop conception. And I have also ordered a liter of Chloroform.

Well today should be a lucky day because of the date being 09/10/11, that should make it nice anyway. but as for the house it is in really bad shape but that will have to take it's time I own it now and if anyone knows away I can get a grant or help me get the roof done it needs a lot of work. floors are buckling and it needs work on the heater,s two radiators are remove but still there, and some eletcical also but it is mine so if I want I could and play, one on one with some one who would not mind the place is dirty. no light no water. but it could be my private place to played with.

So I had done the water at the house, I replace the main valve on a lead line my  next door neighbor help me break through the floor and took off the old one so I went and found the parts and put them in!!!! It has not been so fouled up the tank for the boiler and some pipes are broken and leaking so I could not let the water get to the hot water tank let alone all the way up stairs to the rest of the home. The stuff had frozen I guess, But that is that much more to have to do and that will just take more money and time.  So the plan falls apart; My roof will be delivered on Monday And I will be, there. I tried to get some people to come and give an estimate on the boiler. and the lights plumbing. But I have not heard from them yet.

They terminated my employment yesterday, the one who did not call or show on Sunday called on Tuesday, so they kept him.

Well I was hired today for 8.00 per hour to line cook at a place in North Judson Thank you God, and I am just needing to make some of my own money; Since I now own a lot of debt. almost $40,000.00: Now the roof and what I owe on a lot of other peoples  Money. but this was a real good morning.

Well I have the tax deed for the house but I do  not know what I can do with it It doesn't look very official to me maybe I will go to this county and see what they say. and I need more cash to be able to travel back over to this house, And it is rainy on it Now but I hope not to much It will be a month be for the roof is done. Sears has agreed to finance a new roof job on my house for me At 21,082.44  so they will start soon. I hope the the sooner the better. then I hope to get the heat turned on lights gas and water working so I can start to clean it up. and begin to work on it. And then I hope to be working by then.