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Recently out of long term relationship.....Treading water carefully. Thinking of crossing back over to my top side more as it seems to serve and suit me more than being a bottom unless there is that one out there who can make the bottom in me flourish again. Either that or I am considering departure from the lifestyle all together. Although it has brought great joy.... it has caused me more pain (an not the good kind)
Call me selfish but I require contact... a text... a call... something...I shouldnt have to wonder where the hell you are and what the hell you are doing for days on end. If you can get on facebook while you take a shit you can text me a short message i can see when I am not working. A voicemail.. something..... but if that is wrong of me.. then o be it
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So much I wanna say... just too much of a Southern woman to say it. Even Jesus cant help you now honey....Bless your heart |
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Gotta love when some anonymous asswipe of a so called Dominant messages you ... get a JOB skank.... and blocks you.... especially when you have a job! |
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Over the past few months I am become extremely close to an amazing slave. I have known her for years but only recently has the bond been solidified. She is an amazing little one.... a beautiful person... and hopefully soon I will have the honor of calling her Mine and welcoming her to our leather family. |
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To those asking if I am still owned... the answer is YES! I do NOT take a collar lightly nor is His collar given as an accessory. To those who express regret that I am still in His collar..... that would indicate that you may have possibly had a chance with me.... and expressing regret over someones bliss probably would not have put you in that category. So get over yourself because you probably never would have had a chance with me anyway. Not conceit... just facts. He and I share a special connection that spans over a decade. There is no breaking that. |
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As of December 11, 2016, I am wholly and completely owned by SAFerret. I shall now and forever be known as Ferrets_Ecstasy. Thank You for the honor of serving You, Master. I love You. |
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Lexington Fetish Society play party tonight..... can't wait!!! Been too long since I got out and about and socialized. SOOOOOOO looking forward to it! |
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Sometimes life can be so difficult. There are times you get spoiled. Then there are times you must go without. I am suffering from that at the moment. I have gotten to see an awful lot of my Sir this month and in the coming month I will get to spend Christmas with him as well. But it is the time in between that is sometimes difficult. He is an OTR driver and is gone for 3 weeks at a time. You would think that in time it would get easier for me to see him go... but alas it isnt. Must just learn to be grateful for the time I do get. |
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Just when you THINK you have it all figured out
Amazing how you think you know your path, your journey and find out you really dont know shit.
I have discovered I have been a closeted rope bunny. When you are bound to the bed for 2 hours begging for more rope (he used over 300 ft trying to break me in gently) and begging for more, tighter and playing with it between your toes... you might be a rope bunny LOL
For YEARS i shied away from anything pain related and told myself I was not a pain slut. Wellll apparently someone forgot to give my body the memo. Your body cant fake that. Orgasm after orgasm while receiving pain.... you might be a pain slut
I like... want... and NEED to be pushed to my limits and then pushed over them. Even when you THINK you know your limits... you sometimes dont.
I thought I had everything figured out at 50 and quite a few years in this lifestyle... turns out... yeah not so much.
Thank you for bringing me into the light... enlightening me... and humbling me to your will, SAFerret |
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Another night slowly closes in
And I feel so lonely
Touching heat freezing on my skin
I pretend you still own me
I'm going crazy, I'm losing sleep
I'm in too far, I'm in way too deep over you
I can't believe you're gone
You were the first, you'll be the last
Wherever you go, I'll be with you
Whatever you want, I'll give it to you
Whenever you need someone
To lay your heart and head upon
Remember, after the fire, after all the rain
I will be the flame
I will be the flame
Watching shadows move across the wall
I feel so frightened
I wanna run to you, I wanna call
But I've been hit by lightning
Just can't stand up for fallin' apart
Can't see through this veil across my heart, over you
You'll always be the one
You were the first, you'll be the last
Wherever you go, I'll be with you
Whatever you want, I'll give it to you
Whenever you need someone
To lay your heart and head upon.
Remember, after the fire, after all the rain
I will be the flame
I will be the flame
I'm going crazy, I'm losing sleep
I'm in too far, I'm in way too deep over you
You'll always be the one
You were the first, you'll be the last
Wherever you go, I'll be with you
Whatever you want, I'll give it to you
Whenever you need someone
To lay your heart and head upon.
Remember, after the fire, after all the rain
I will be the flame
I will be the flame
Whatever you want, I'll give it to you
Wherever you go, I'll be with you
And whatever you want, I'll give it to you |
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She's a gold-plated lover
Twenty-four carat cool
She can walk on water
She can walk in my room
She's a one man woman
and it's a one man race
She's got a kiss like fire
She burns the lips right off my face
It's finder's keepers
Loser's gonna weep
She's personal, property
Sealed 'n' stamped
Money in the bank
She's private
For my eyes only
She's personal property
Personal property
Personal service, personal touch
Exclusively mine, thank you so much
She's a heart stoppin', brain thuddin'
Blood pumpin', knee tremblin'
Spine crushin', tongue tyin'
Personal property
And she belongs to me
She won't fall for nothin'
She's much more than cute
Don't mind why' window shoppin', that's all right
But you ain't gonna taste
My forbidden fruit
Adios, au revoir,
Wiedersehen, goodbye
She's personal property
Off limits, out of bounds
Under lock 'n' key
Confidential
For my eyes only
She's personal property
Personal property
Personal service, personal touch
Exclusively mine, thank you so much
She's a heart stoppin', brain thuddin'
Blood pumpin', knee tremblin'
Spine crushin', tongue tyin'
She's mine, yeah
Now I don't mind you guys checkin' her out
You can whistle like a wolf
Or you can mess around
But let me tell you the secret
Of the sweet life
If you want to stay healthy, man
Take my advice
You better kit the road, Jack
And don't come back!
You could be king of the jungle
Or you could swing in the rain
But she don't need no monkey, not my babe
Cause I'm her Tarzan and she's my Jane
And she's mine
She belongs to me
Credit to Def Leppard |
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"You're Mine"
I've begun to realize
That I'm better when I am with you
You delivered me from the pain
In my life
Easy now to recognize
All the misery I have been through
It was beating me to submission
Till the day you arrived
Suddenly, I felt alive
Strength I had lost was revived
and building inside
And we both know why
'Cause you're
Mine
I knew I could be whole if you were
Mine
I'll vanquish any foe because you're
Mine
Been betrayed too many times
Didn't think I would ever recover
Let it haunt me for the rest of my life
Then you opened up my eyes
And you helped me rediscover
Were the one who resurrected
A man who had died
Your power, it gave me new life
Made me reborn and refined
Rebuilt from inside
And we both know why
'Cause you're
Mine
I knew I could be whole if you were
Mine
I'll vanquish any foe because you're
Mine
I never thought I would ever escape
At times, I wanted to die
Feared that it all was just a little too late
Thought that I wouldn't survive
I let you in and let go of the hate
My heart recovered now, I
Owe you a debt that I can never repay
I still believe
'Cause you're mine
I'm burning inside
And we both know why
'Cause you're mine
I knew I could be whole if you were
Mine
I'll vanquish any foe because you're
Mine
I can regain control because you're
Mine
I can take over the world because you're
Mine
Mine
Credit to Distrubed
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It kinda makes me wonder
About the lovers that have been.
Lyin' in my bed with her hands tied up
I knew it all along that it wasn't enough
'Cause when I gotta taste of you
I found something I could sink my teeth into
Its an ache that never heals
Its the deepest cut you feel
Its the thing in you that feeds
The animal in me
Its the darker side of lust
Its the other side of us
Its the thing in you that feeds
The animal in me
I wanna be your last breath
Before we suffocate
A kiss you cant forget
Like a wedding on a rainy day
The chills keep shootin' down the back of my neck
Like a freight train poundin' in the pit of my chest
'Cause when I got a taste of you
I found something I could sink my teeth into
Credit to Motley Crue |
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The Rebirth of Ecstasy
Earlier this morning, beauty died. She died from a broken heart. She had known of her affliction for several years but only recently began a recent descent from which she was not able to recover. But even as she laid there dying, ecstasy was being reborn.
Before beauty, there was ecstasy. Ecstasy was a vibrant, willing, eager woman full of hope and promise. But ecstasy was also young and naive in so very many ways. She forgot some of lifes simplest of values. Nothing worth having ever came easy. Like the old commercial said... do things the old fashioned way... earn them. For years ecstasy was content to live in the shadow of beauty. She was always there... lurking.. just waiting for the opportunity to step into the light. She hoped. She prayed. Instead of bringing ecstasy with her, beauty listened to the ramblings of a silver tongued devil who promised the world, who promised a safe life, who promised an easy life.... and left ecstasy abandon and alone in the shadows... in the darkness. When beauty realized she was dying... she came back to ecstasy and begged her forgiveness. She took ecstasy by the hand... and led her back towards the light. And with that, ecstasy was reborn.
Ecstasy is a bit older now. A bit wiser. A bit more jaded. A bit more twisted. A bit darker. Ecstasy knows what she wants and is willing to not only wait for it but put in the work to go after it. Not only is she not willing to settle for second best... she is not going to settle for being second best. She expects to get as much as she gives. She hopes it is not too late for her.
Beauty may have been in the light... but she was in the light alone... cold... lonely... and isolated. Recently some important people came back into ecstasy's life. Took her by the hand. In doing so she flashed back to an around her. Holding her tight. Helping her walk back toward the light. She remembers that warmth. That safety. That security. That caring. And she realized just how much she has missed out on while waiting in the shadows. Will he still find her in all this darkness? Can he bring this dark ecstasy back into the light?
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| Age: 35 |
| Minneapolis,
Minnesota |
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