so again its been awhile since iv written in here. for some reason blogspot is acting stupid. keeps saying i dont have any blogs yet iv been writting in it for years. stupid site. its almost 3 am just sitting up listening to some music, smoking a cig texting a friend from here. wish i could say my moods have changed for the good over the weeks/months. i just wish i knew how to deal with this shit better then i have been. what do you do when you wake up every day and think about someone you can never have again? you try and block them out as much as you can and every attempt just fails. at least the person i knew when i was with her is dead. someone new is now in her place. not sure how to explain it but she just isnt herself. i realize for a dom to be admitting this is rather silly and undom like im sure some of you think, but meh whatever. what do you do when so many questions are left unanswered and far to many doors left wide open? i am very lost and just dont know what to do about theses questions.. |