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Time marches on.

Still in WA, still married, still in love, and, still wondering if there are others out there who feel as we do.

All but giving up on finding anyone who feels the Alpha Male dynamic is the only way to live, every once in a while I come here to snoop around. Finding pan sexual, gay activities or those seeking pain on a contractual basis, is not difficult. Those establishments are not hard to locate. Spending time with bratty women who want to be punished, or young men with desires to be dominated, just doesn't do it for us. Everyone has their thing, ours is more about just living, in a male dominated world, without fictional names, planets or clothing. In our 18th year together, obviously this works :)

I'm sure this isn't new, but instead of using the D/s moniker, Alpha Male sounds more accurate. We know who we are, who is dominate and who submits, but since D/s could be used for a woman dominating a man, it didn't seen appropriate for how we view things.

Looking here for contacts, for a last ditch effort to find others who would enjoy to spend time with people that feel the same.


3/25/2013 4:16:17 PM

Another "spring" storm...if I ever get my hands on that rodent, I will own a new fur coat.  Perusing the boards here, and I see the same names, ad nausea.  Sad.  This has such potential for reaching out and the same topics are rehashed until threadbare, by the same folks who can't seem to sign off the computer. 

12/24/2012 1:30:11 PM

Merry Christmas!

11/9/2012 10:54:37 AM

Finally, the wet, cold weather has arrived!  We were beginning to think Winter would pass us by this year. My heart goes out to all those affected by Hurricane Sandy, at last reading, there are still so many without homes, or power, or both! Winter is not the season you want to try your hand at camping. It seems so little, but hopefully our meager donation for assistance will be put to good use.

With the wet, comes indoor projects. Today, however, is a day for bundling up and making beef stew.

Chuck sold the last of his software, and is now buried deep within the world of sports cards! I'm thrilled he found something to keep his interest, now that the music is no more.  Not sure where we will store all the boxes, lol, but we will find a place! Everyone needs an interest, a hobby, a pastime that keeps your mind and spirit active, crossing my fingers this is such a thing for Chuck.

And now, a fire is calling my name.

 

 

10/15/2012 1:04:13 PM

Fall is fast departing, the irrigation has been shut down, bulbs are snug in their new beds and the veggie garden has been tilled, ready for next year.

With the return of cold weather, comes more free time.  So, I decided to update this journal.  Not much has changed.  Chuck is a little more disabled then he was at my last writing, finding things to amuse his mind grows difficult!  Not able to type much at all, or sit at the computer, we tried a voice activated software package and a laptop he can use in the recliner.  His spirits are great, I can only hope I am as positive when things start to go wrong with me!

I think the hardest thing for me to watch, was his inability to play music.  One by one, the instruments were sold, and he now uses a program on the computer to create songs.  The sadness in his eyes, when he couldn't pick up or use a guitar, was almost too much to bear.  And yet, he smiles. 

Once, I mentioned my fondness for model trains, and it's like watching a small child at Christmas light up when I show him different models, I think he is more excited then I am at the prospect of this new hobby! 

I never thought it possible to love someone so much.   I was so very wrong.

2/27/2012 10:38:48 AM

Spring is around the corner! Or so it feels like. The gardens are bursting with new life, several trees are covered in green and it was so bright and sunny, I had to break out the Foster Grants.

Free time is spent raking leaves,turning over soil and fertilizing,nothing like getting your hands dirty! Our veggies are snug in their little cups,waiting for a bit warmer temps to venture outside,and the plants moved indoors for Winter,are now hanging from the patio cover. The days of gray and brown are over!

1/31/2012 1:19:34 PM

The last two weeks have been interesting. First, let me say that snow is no longer magical. Our town shut down for a week,we have no snowplows and rely on local farmers to plow the streets. Bumper high snow,packed on top of ice,makes for dangerous driving,I don't care what kind of 4-wheel drive you have.

Today, the sky is clear,deep blue and we are sitting at 40 degrees, it's about time! Having a well stocked pantry with home canned fruits and sauces, tons of flour,sugar and coffee just makes it seem as if we can weather anything. Big trip to the "city" on Friday, time to restock essentials. This, is the highpoint of my world.

 

1/16/2012 12:26:37 PM

2012 arrived. Yippee. I'm thinking that if Meteorologist had been offered on career day in high school, I would have signed up. For women, it was nursing,teaching or secretarial duties. I don't recall anyone pushing Meteorology, not even for the boys.

Not only is the field interesting,but it's the only career I know of that your safe,no matter your prediction. In fact, people expect you to be wrong. Pretty cool, when you think about it.

12/30/2011 1:11:43 PM

Just one more day....I must say that I am ready to put 2011 to bed. I also, can't wait to see what 2012 brings!

Here's to a happy,healthy New Year :)

12/15/2011 9:08:52 AM

Woke to a lovely picture of fresh snow over everything.   Snow adds to the magic of the year and can turn an ordinary day into something special.   I can say that because we only get a few inches, typically...not the many feet others are dealing with!

Things are settling down, not as much running around,a day or two to relax and do some baking. Maybe a good soup day.

12/2/2011 8:33:51 PM

Big day on Monday. Today, we had the van worked on, took it in for a luxury wash and detailing, oil change, the works. We are heading to Seattle for a specialist who will hopefully have wonderful things to suggest for Chuck. The wait has been long, and I have to say, he is not looking forward to 7 hours in a car, 3 1/2 hours each way. Reclining seats,pillows and anything I can do to make him comfortable, has been done.

The weather is behaving, forecast is cold and dry, but no snow! Having a fairly large mountain pass to climb, this is great news! I will breath a sigh of relief on Tuesday, when this trip is behind us.

 

11/24/2011 11:30:50 PM

Too much food.  It's harder to make special meals for only two, then it is for twenty!  No matter how small the bird is, there are always leftovers!

Wonderful day, everything went smoothly, nothing burned and I remembered the cranberry jelly. A bit too much football for my personal taste, but otherwise, a grand day. I am thankful for my life, my husband and loved ones. There could be more money, but when I look at all those who have lost so much, I feel blessed that we are doing so well. Now, it's time to unpack Christmas and start the mayhem!

10/29/2011 3:56:11 PM

I think if I smell apples one more day, I will hurl.  At least the canning is done, jars lined up in the pantry like little soldiers. We even have enough to send as gifts, apple butter and apple sauce, my family will love me! Beautiful, crisp fall day, following a night in the twenties, perfect for roaring fires, homemade bread, stews and fleece lined slippers.  I miss Summer already.

10/10/2011 1:43:56 PM

Solid day of heavy rain, perfect for canning applesauce!  1 bushel of apples down, 6 quarts of applesauce in the pantry.  Another bushel left to go, and Im thinking...applesauce and applebutter!

Fuji apples won't be ready for another week or so and my game plan is to put up tomato sauce next, hopefully all those green tomatoes will be ripe in a few days while we wait on the Fuji's.

9 min to kill while I wait for the cooking to be done, and here I sit.  It's like playing beat the clock to get all this stuff in jars!

10/6/2011 7:56:42 PM

First full day of rain and gloom..brrr.   We pulled the last of the tomatoes from the vine, dug up the plants, all berries have been trimmed and it feels like Fall has hit full force.  The heavy robe was brought out of hiding; Thick sweatpants and socks are the fashion of the day, and hot chocolate is flowing in a constant stream.

I'm counting the days until Spring. 

 

 

9/29/2011 11:10:40 AM

Finally home!  Dogs resting, van unloaded, scrubbed down and packed again for this weekend.  Came home to a dead computer, I guess 6 years is a good long life.  Now trying to get the new one up to speed and having arguments with the browser. 

Had a GREAT trip back east, stopped at every tourist trap along the way, took countless pictures and the dogs did fantastic.  Still flying high from the experience, now ready to do it all again, but this time closer to home!

Fall has arrived in all it's glory.  Ordered wood for the winter, started pruning roses and berries.  Birds are active, geese flying overhead almost in a constant stream, and I am making soup.  Funny, how it can be warm when you leave and totally different upon your return!   Gotta go..hasta!

9/13/2011 4:41:43 PM

Busy, busy, busy.

 

Packing, grooming dogs and getting ready for a cross country trip.  Our once a year dog show, devoted to only this breed.   Three days of driving, each direction, half the fun is getting there!   I am, the poster child for American Tourist.   Picking up little tokens of each state when we stop for gas; hats, mugs, tshirts, key fobs..you get the picture.

Seeing people I haven't seen since last year, renewing friendships and making new ones, it's like a party that lasts for an entire week.  Everyone stays at one hotel, the late night discussions held in hallways can go on until dawn!  

Dogs look fantastic, putting their best foot forward....just got my own hair done, lets get this thing going!

We had such a mild summer, the last two weeks have been a bit overwhelming, too hot for my taste.  Hopefully that little episode is over and Fall can start to gear up.  I look forward to picking apples when we get back.

Ta, for now!

 

 

 

8/21/2011 8:45:56 AM

Hot weather, finally arrived.  Morning chores, watering done early, now onto indoor stuff.  First canning of the year, stewed tomatoes.  Found a very easy recipe for Italian style, just a few more to pick from the plant and we are ready to go.  Nothing beats the feeling of watching the pantry fill with jars for the winter, such an emotion of accomplishment, must be what squirrels feel as they store nuts!

 

 

 

8/20/2011 5:03:19 PM

What a sticky mess.   And not in a good way.  I had forgotten, (its been a year), the mess involved with peeling peaches for pies.   It's everywhere!  I'm thinking a firehose to the kitchen just might work.  

Great fun though, and nothing better then home made peach pie.  Time to jump in the shower and lose the syrup that has attached itself to various parts of me.

8/19/2011 9:34:21 AM

Ok... I have come to the conclusion that BDSM stands for Bondage, Discipline, Sadomasochism and Masochism, based on the original context of the acronym.  This is how I view it, so my comments on my profile and journal stand as written, we don't partake in this particular combination of activities.   As always, these are my views.

Dominant and submissive in nature is what we are, it's not what we do, this, plus the fact an acronym can only support one word per letter, there is no way that BDSM can represent Bondage/Discipline/Dominance/Submission/Sadomasochism/Masochism. 

8/19/2011 8:14:33 AM

I may have been wrong...eek!  The world makes a little less sense now. 

Actually, if what I based my thoughts on in regard to BDSM is incorrect, I owe some apologies and some deep soul thinking is in order.    

While we don't do BDSM activities, there is most assuredly a dominant force and submissive nature at work in this house...

Stay tuned for an update.  Could be the biggest apology online ever recorded. 

8/18/2011 3:42:22 PM

BDSM, people assume that because you take the time to post on a forum that is clearly labeled for BDSM, that you MUST partake in the activity.  Well...we all know what happens when you assume. 

I put in my profile that my husband and I don't enjoy BDSM, as it was explained to us as Bondage Discipline Sadism Masochism.   I was recently corrected that this also means Dominance/submission...but that makes no sense to me.  How can it have two meanings?  If the D/S had two meanings, then shouldn't it read BDDSSM?

We took the time to read books, (Screw the roses, give me the thorns and BDSM101), made a few visits to play parties and spent several weekends at the Wet Spot in Seattle.  My husband even went so far as to have lengthy discussions with the owner of the WS, trying to find out what this was all about.  We didn't simply read online and make a decision, it was done with hands on experience.

Same with Gor.   John Norman brought us together, for that I owe him.  But after spending time with folks that were met on the internet, it was decided that there were too many questions unanswered, too many hypocrites involved to make it worthwhile.   In the lifestyles defense, we did meet a handful of people that didn't use chat rooms to converse or hold discussions, and it was through our meetings with them, that we saw the entire thing in a new light, a different and better light.  No roleplay, secret handshake or funny language, no clothing or food that was imitated from a set of books.  I saw firsthand that people could assimilate something from the books, and it had nothing to do with what you typically find online..and everything to do with a self awareness.

We still don't use the "G" word, too many nutcases that lay claim to being gorean and our lives can be lived in the same manner, without labels, titles or funny looking toga's. 

So, when people say to me that ALL goreans enjoy BDSM, I just smile, secure in my knowledge they are incorrect, but it's not their fault.  They have been hanging with the wrong group of folks :)

Edited to add:   Just about the time I ponder this board and wonder if I should even be here...someone sends me a message after reading my profile and makes me blush with their kind words.  I am constantly amazed at the number here, who want such a simple relationship, just surprising to find them on a forum that boasts BDSM as it's main function.

 

8/16/2011 12:23:59 PM

Peaches, peaches, everywhere!   Too early for the canning variety, but we cleaned the orchard of Galaxy, Pink Diamond and White Lady Nectarines!   Chuck even went picking!  Of course, the camera was left home...but it was good to see him out among the trees and smiling :)    I have to laugh when I come to read this forum, at the number of people who remain alone, yet have all the answers to relationships... all manners and forms of relationships, they know what works, what is correct, incorrect and by George if you don't agree, you are wrong.  Plain and simple.   Experts, on paper but not where it counts.  

Does it help feed the need?   There can be no one, anywhere on this planet who is actively living with a partner, who knows more then these self proclaimed experts.  One of the "perks" to a message forum.   After all, without these lonely experts who fill the pages with the correct and incorrect ways to a healthy relationship, what would a message forum be?   We can't all be living it, there would be no one left to write.

 

Peach pie, coming up.

8/15/2011 10:32:17 AM

Peaches!   Another week or so, before the canning fruit is ready...jars and supplies are all lined up in anticipation.   Apples to follow.

With August, comes the start of our temperature change, by the end of the month we will have lost 10 degrees ( on average ).  The mornings are already getting chilly, it's starting!

Our list of home repairs has dwindled down, I'm amazed at all that was accomplished.  Not bad for a couple of old folks.  Giving the deck another coat of paint, and ordering a few cords of wood, seems to be our last few chores for the year.   I started to stack up some inside projects for the winter, helping to keep me occupied!  I am ready for Fall...bring it!

 

7/17/2011 11:38:34 AM

Things are moving!  In an effort to clean house and remove all items not used in the last six months, the last appliance just walked out the door.  *waves goodbye to a portable room A/C*

With central AC, there is no need to hang onto a room unit, it is doubtful I will ever have a large kennel building again, so...Craigslist to the rescue.   The stand up freezer went yesterday, and assorted hair dryers for dogs and crates left last week.   Wow...closet space again!   Chuck proclaimed he was NOT for sale, I think the glassy eyed look I had while seeking something else to sell, worried him.   The weather is turning sticky and hot, strange for this part of the world....so indoor projects are getting done.   Work with what ya got, thats my motto.   On that note, buh bye for now. 

6/19/2011 4:54:27 PM

Gorgeous!  The PNW has blessed us with absolutely beautiful weather lately...I almost feel guilty, considering what the rest of the country is experiencing.    Our veggies are thriving, the roses are exploding with color and today I bought out the local farmers market, more roses!    The raspberries are loaded, we are having fresh berries morning and night, with enough left over for baking.   Tomorrow, we head to the cherry orchard and load up on Rainer cherries, 1.50 a lb at the Upick orchard.   The season of plenty!   Time to start preparing the canning supplies, buy more jars, etc, this looks like a great year.

5/25/2011 4:35:59 PM

Where is Summer???!!!   More rain today, however I won't complain about it, we are not getting hit like those poor folks in the midwest and south.  A little rain is ok....

 

On the positive side, I am finishing up inside projects.  Guest bathroom painted, moved on to the master bath.   Only the guest room is left for a new coat of paint, it's amazing when I stop and look at all we have done.   If only I had painted everything white, then we wouldn't have a collection of gallon cans, each a different color, each only lacking 1/4 of it's contents.    Hey, we have extra for touch ups!

 

Veggies are in the ground, the berries are bursting with new growth, and next week, the U-Pick farms open up and we can start bringing in flats of fresh produce.   Yeah!  By next year, I hope to have our own berries to the point we won't need to buy any extra.  I feel like a squirrel, as I clean out the pantry and get things ready for new cans filled with fruits and veggies.   When you look at it from a timeline, we only have 5 months to stock up for winter, lol

 

Ok, time is up.  Chuck is waiting for dinner and it should be almost ready... ta!

5/10/2011 10:38:42 AM

I love message forums.  They tend to bring out the best in folks. NOT.  

You will find people who would argue the sky is blue, just to see their name in print.  And, as much as this is a forum for a wide variety of interests, you would think an open mind should be common among the masses, but it's not.    Agenda's, soapboxes and just plain ol bull headed arguments, fill the posts.    Why?     Is it so important that everyone think alike? 

4/5/2011 10:33:07 AM

Who puts cathedral ceilings in a bathroom?  I know I'm short...but c'mon.  Even with the "tall" ladder, it was a stretch to reach that high peak.   At least the painting is done!  Finally, the weather was warm enough to open windows, all these put off projects are coming to an end :)

 

3/12/2011 3:12:08 PM

Rainy day,  outside chores are put off and the house smells like fresh baked bread.  I think they call this paradise. 

I got to put my new dough hook to good use today, woohoo, no more tired arms from mixing bread!    

As the weather starts to climb, 40's at least, things start to turn green outside and there is a push to fertilize, plant and start those long awaited projects out doors!  This year, I'm trying a straw bale garden.   I like the idea that in the Fall, I can use the composted straw in the flower beds, on of our contributions to living green.    

 

We found several local farms that are raising beef, pork and chickens on pasture!  No grains, hormones or supplements.   Just grass, and lots of it.    After a trip to the dairy, we got to see the Jersey cows, on green grass no less!, batting their long lashes and looking like a cow should.   We brought home milk, raw, with cream on top!  OMG.   Our trip also added several dozen eggs, from chickens who never see a cage.  The taste is unbelievable, the yolks are deep orange, instead of washed out yellow.  Then, our freezer had a few cuts of beef added to it, from, you guessed it...pasture fed beef.   I'm waiting for the call in April, when we can pick up fryers that were raised on grass, not crammed into small cages and mass produced.  

 

Next trip, will be for butter, yogurt and cream, all from those lovely Jersey girls :)  

This will be our second year here, and I am looking forward to lots of fresh veggies and fruits.  The berries should produce well,  homemade jam, here we come!   

This journal reads like "down on the farm", instead of something on a BDSM forum, lol  Oh well, it's my life :)

 

1/5/2011 5:21:46 PM

Calm, quiet day.  I took advantage and cleaned out some boxes left over from the move.  It was like a second Christmas!   Stuff that had not seen the light of day in years.  

 

What do you do with old photos?   Pictures taken with people you will never see again and haven't spoken to in ages.   I say SHRED!   But... having an afterthought, I tried to contact some of them via FB or old email accounts, asking if they wish to cherish the Kodak moments.    I guess, if no one responds, then we shred.

 

Some folks like to hang on to things as keepsakes, I prefer to maintain neatness and order, the less clutter the better.  

 

So, we'll see.  

 

Otherwise, the day has been so spooky quiet, (even the dogs were good), should I look heavenward for falling birds?

1/1/2011 12:45:40 AM

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Here it is...2011

 

Happy New Year!   Don't squander your days, live a little.  Ya never know how many more are on the books.

 

Wishing everyone a healthy, prosperous new year!

12/20/2010 5:12:45 PM
4 more days.  Christmas eve will be upon us, with all the magic and splendor involved.   It's a somber time, remembering family and friends lost, but also it brings on a feeling that only happens once a year....even if you don't follow religion, and find yourself short on cash, nothing can dampen this moment.     I think it brings back all the happiness in your life, when you were surrounded by loved ones and there was loud laughter and merriment.   Though they are no longer with you, in spirit they return at this wonderful time of year.

We are being blessed this year with a white holiday, for some reason that just makes it all the more special.   Frozen water can turn a dreary winter day into a magical scene. 

As our families dwindle down, as we grow a little slower, a little grayer, and find that television is way too loud these days.....cherish those around you.   Tell them so.  Share the moment with the ones you love.

Merry Christmas to all :)
11/29/2010 7:12:46 AM

Are we ever too old to learn lifes lessons?   Evidently not.   I myself, learned a valuable one just this week. 

 

Early morning doctors apt with Chuck today...sort of dreading the drive on ice covered roads and heavy fog...but we are leaving early and taking it slow.   At least the snow stopped, although I think I would rather have snow then ice.

 

With luck, we can stop by Home Depot for some essentials...since I am housebound, the time is spent painting and finishing up details, like baseboards.  Keeps me occupied, since we both detest daytime television.

 

That lesson?   I can't help everyone, not my place or job.  I am actually hurting their chances at success by taking on the difficult areas, preventing them from growth.  

 

11/27/2010 11:18:14 AM

I should have known better, but I was helping someone, so how can that be a bad thing?  Maybe by helping, I was not letting them do the stumbling by themselves.  Hrmmm..something to ponder. 

I've taken things as far as I can, the word came down from "he who must be obeyed", enough.  You cannot expect people to listen, or expand their thinking on something when they have no desire to do so.  Continuing to plead my case is futile and borderline harassement.  (Says himself)  So, as much as I would love to fill bandwidth with more questions and responses...it's over.  My involvement in this has ceased :)

So... how about them Mariners???     Oh yeh, it's STILL snowing!

11/26/2010 7:28:43 PM

Spent "Black Friday" with friends, as far away from the malls as possible!   Not hard to do with the weather, ice and slick roads doesn't make for a fun time.   I don't care what kind of four wheel drive you have...ice doesn't play.   We all become equal at that point, lol  Most of us, sliding sideways.


This cold front won't let up, we have made a large dent in the woodpile!   Speaking of...I better go toss another log into the box.

10/9/2010 9:34:27 AM
Two postings in one day...alert the media!

It's quiet in the house, I'm waiting for the kitchen floor to dry so here I am. 

My sister and her partner are splitting up after over 15 years and several ring ceremonies.  Talk about shocked, it was one of those things that I never thought would happen. 

To say she is crushed, is putting it mildly, this came out of nowhere, without any signs or warning.   The fact she lives in another state is not making it easy to console her, and there is something lackluster in a cyber hug or phone call.

She is my "baby" sister, we are seperated by 7 years, it was my job to take care of her and for the first time, I can't help.  

Tending to Chuck leaves me little time with nothing to do, and if I thought he could manage the house, plus dogs...I would be on a plane as I am writing this.  Taking pen in hand, as it were, has always helped me when I was troubled, so I figured why not here.

Facing the fact she will be alone, I think is the hardest part.  It also has me thinking about how I would cope if Chuck left suddenly.  It's not like anyone plans to be alone, but it happens and there isn't much that can be done, except go forward.   Sounds so easy now, while I'm secure...I wonder how I will deal with things if it were to become a reality?
10/9/2010 7:31:40 AM
We survived!    Our first "day trip" taking Chuck to a specialist 3 hours away.   I felt for him, thats a hell of a drive when your experiencing intense pain.   Hopefully, this will all lead to some relief for him.

Our return was colorful.  Just one day away, brought some changes that we are still reeling from.  

We are scheduled for a return trip next month, lets see what that brings!   Family...gotta love it.  
10/5/2010 3:18:56 PM
Autumn has arrived!  Why is it called Autumn by some and Fall by others?  Hmmm..researching is needed.

The houseplants hanging on the patio have been brought inside for the winter, just in time, we had our first mid thirty degree night.  All garden hoses are safely stored for next year and we are almost ready to give the lawn one final mow prior to putting the mower to bed for the season.

I don't talk about Gor often, it's part of my past that I don't think too fondly of, but every once in a while when I come to these forums, I read a post that has me going "hmmmm".

One poster in particular, continues to drum on about people not "able" to achieve success in a gorean way of life, due to their shortcomings.   Can we flip this record over, the needle is rusty.

Some, no, alot, of folks I know who were introduced to either one or several goreans offline, decided that Gor didn't meet their standards, NOT the other way around.   When hypocrisy and double standards rule the roost...it's time to leave the hen house.  

I think people need to justify why they continue to spout off about their way of living, it's very similar to brain washing...repeat, repeat, and then repeat.  Eventually, even yourself will come to believe the words you speak.   

9/6/2010 6:49:35 AM
Where did the laughter go?

Sometimes when I come to these forums, I see far too much in the way of debate, hot tempers and seriousness...with not enough humour.  

Your chosen way of life shouldn't be so stoic that you forget how to crack a smile.  If thats the case, find a new way of life.   Your time on this planet may increase if you are able to see the lighter side in not only a situation, but also have the ability to laugh at yourself.

We come into this world as innocents, our time here is not that long, why would you waste it being miserable and angry?  I will end this entry with the famous phrase, " Lighten up Francis ".

9/2/2010 12:17:51 PM
The last peach is now stored safely in it's jar...awaiting Winter.   Today, sauce is brewing from home grown Roma tomato's and will soon join the peaches.   I love seeing jars lined up in neat little rows.. sort of a primal emotion, that we are prepared for anything, lol

Apples will be ready in the next few weeks, those are easier to store, just a cool, dark bin in the shop will keep them for most of the Winter.  

Our Fall trip to Costco for papergoods is almost here, loading up for Winter to help alleviate runs to the store.   The woodpile is stacked and waiting...after re-arranging the 10 ft high pile into a longer 4 ft high one, (I would like to meet the idiot who stacked it 10 ft high...geesh). 

The grass is starting to slow it's growth, watering is down from twice a day to every other day...you can start to see leaves change and there is a chill in the air.  I love it!

C'mon Fall...I am soo ready!
8/26/2010 4:44:56 PM
Canning time is upon us.   For the next few days we will be picking peaches, nectarines and pears, getting them ready for the next phase...canning.

Lovely, sticky job :)   This means that apples are next, a sure sign Fall is around the corner!  Fresh apple pies, cobblers and pasties...mmmmmmmm  

8/12/2010 8:40:22 PM
I am having beach withdrawls.   It's been 4 years since I have walked on a sandy shoreline...with waves.    So far the coastal areas I have been to up here are just wrong.  No sand, lots of rocks.  I miss my CA beaches.

I want to walk along Venice sidewalks, see the tidepools at Laguna, have that feeling of sinking into warm sand up to your ankles and build a sand sculpture...even digging for sand crabs as the tide goes out seems fun!  

I'd even be thrilled to spend time at Huntington Beach, with it's dirty, brown water, lol   Grab an order of nachos with melted cheeze whiz and taste sand as you munch them down!   *sigh*   

A road trip may be in order...
7/26/2010 8:04:32 AM
Phew.  The mercury is rising this morning and even though we try to avoid it so early in the day, it looks like the A/C is being turned on.  

Weather is behaving badly this year, triple digits PLUS humidity is not common for this area.  Thank goodness for automatic sprinklers, at least the plants are thriving!

I ordered some beeswax sheets, going to try my hand at making candles.  My effort at keeping busy indoors during the heat.  One can only vacume, dust or scrub so often, before it becomes an addictive behavior, lol 

Chuck is doing well, he remains in high spirits even with the pain level increasing.  We are banking on physical therapy to really show us some improvement in his condition.  I'm hopeful :)  For now, keeping things light and filled with laughter is high priority. 

5/29/2010 8:09:40 AM
Where does the time go?   We are moved and almost entirely unpacked, yeah!   With the painting, carpeting and outdoor work, when the hamner was laid down, the head hit the pillow in complete exhaustion.  Online interaction was left high and dry.


Everyone settled in, stuff on the walls and it is starting to feel like home.  Now time to turn on the news and see what has been happening that we missed out on.  Sorry to everyone that wrote messages, I am alive!  Exhausted, but alive.  


In the midst of all the moving, I woke one day with Bells Palsy.  If you have never heard of this, as I hadn't, it mimics a stroke.  One side of my face was paralyzed.  A quick trip to the ER gave me good news..no stroke, and the effects of BP is typically short lived.   Within a month, all was fine, but it was touch and go for a few weeks as to whether I would have permanent muscle damage or not.

Getting old is just not fun.  Chuck may be looking at early retirement due to his injury, we'll see what the specialist says.  I hope they can do something for him, he is in constant pain these days, not good. 

Thats about it, we are back to living in the boondocks, our town has a population of 2500 ppl, no grocery store but we have a bank and True Value hardware!  Enjoy the holiday everyone and don't forget those who lost their lives so you can enjoy BBQ.  Our flag is flying, is yours?

2/5/2010 3:07:23 PM
Yet again, deceipt happens.   Imagine that, here online, people play games and pretend.  What won't they think of next?

One person having access to multiple accounts, sending posts under any name she so chooses for the day...it's mind boggling.   How can anyone have that sort of time?  More importantly...why would you waste it?   

I guess time is too important to me, I never have enough to finish everything that needs doing, so I have just this one account, such as it is, lol

I suppose, if online forums are critical for your well being, you find ways to spend every waking moment signed in...for me, I prefer a walk in the sunshine :)
1/15/2010 12:39:47 PM
Well, we took the plunge.   With a low real estate inventory in the area, we were told now is a good time to sell.   Believe it or not..our little hamlet has not been hit too badly by the economy, houses are still selling!


So, it is officially listed for sale.   Now comes the fun!   It's like living in a fire station, waiting for that phone call that sends you screaming down the pole!   We are on constant alert, ready to grab dogs and head out the door.   The house must remain spotless...I mean beyond clean, no water spots on any chrome,  the shower doors to be pristine and not a speck of soap scum, floors freshly mopped and vacumed, no dishes on counter, all appliances put away to countertops remain empty...it's like living in a model home.

If it was just us, this would be a cake.  Having three active dogs, during winter...is making this a living hell.   My free time is spent washing walls from any mud splatter, making sure all nose prints are removed from the patio door, floors don't show any pawprints and the carpets are freshly vacumed and "uplifted". 

Poor Chuck...he can't even come home and kick off his shoes and leave the socks.  There is NO relaxing.  You just never know when the phone will ring and an agent will arrive. 

Did I mention dust?   We live in an agricultural area, dust happens.   Even with all the windows sealed, it comes in on the dogs.  The furniture can be dust free on Monday...and you could write your name on the table by Wed.!

It's ok, we will survive.   That which doesn't kill us, makes us stronger :)
12/22/2009 12:18:43 PM
What to do with the time.   Inbetween batches of Christmas cookies and loaves of fancy bread, there are parcels of time to wait...so here I am.

One of the perks of a small house, it takes less time to clean!  Everything spic and span, decorated and ready for the big day, too cold to venture out, so the computer is a way to waste a few moments.

Not one for daytime television, I can't get into soap operas or game shows.  If there are no cooking or gardening programs on, the tv stays quiet.  Which if I thought about it, even staring at a blank screen would probably be more enlightening then the computer!

15 more min., then the cookies go onto the cooling rack and I take off for a surprise job interview.  Who knew people were hiring the week of Christmas!  God Bless them! 

It never matters how many days, weeks or months I am away from this forum, I can come back and pick up right where it left off.   The topics never change, only the players.   In it's own way, it is a soap opera.  Ack! 

On that note..time to check on cookies. 
12/21/2009 8:00:56 AM
Reflections.   At the end of every year we reflect on how things have progressed, or failed.

I have failed at securing employment, it's been 5 months since I was laid off.  Though no fault of my own, it's something I have failed to achieve. 

Through our failures we learn and grow.  Now, on my third revamp of my resume, I feel I have finally hit upon a winning ticket.  The results will tell.

Our garden is quiet, only the leafless blueberries left, like sentinels.   The plan for Spring is already drawn, the garden area won't be quiet much longer. 

Any resolutions for 2010?  Sure, employment is first on the list.  Get through Chucks up coming surgery, more yard work and finish up the inside with new carpet.  The rest, will fall into place as time allows.  Oh, and continue to not take ourselves too seriously.  :)
6/24/2009 7:08:22 AM
Where does the time go.   

Lots to do today, but for now, I am enjoying the quietness.   All I can hear is the sound of rainbirds going off and the dove's cooing outside my window.   Very tranquil.

Puppies are growing like weeds.  I leave for Oregon this weekend for a few dog shows, and to deliver the dam of this litter back to her previous owner.   She isn't working out here for various reasons.   I feel bad, as she has attached herself to my left hip, but...sometimes you can't change a three year old dog.  What they learn young, stays with them.  

Chuck is doing well, the pain meds seem to finally be working on a steady basis.  Yeah! 

Our landscaping is slowing down, we are finishing up what needs to be done prior to cold weather, and making a list for next spring.  The yard is really looking nice, I must say :)   All the heavy grunt work is over, now it's just fine tuning and puttering.   I love puttering.

Our attention is now on the inside, and a bathroom remodel.   A new shower is being installed in place of the existing tub/shower, new flooring and a vanity.   We found a place that can do the shower/tub in one day!   This is a HUGE deal, since it means no toilet or shower until done.  

Times up.  Gotta get moving while its still cool enough outside to accomplish all I need to do.
5/20/2009 5:55:19 AM
I have become a statistic.  Laid off from work two weeks ago and now I join the thousands applying for unemployment.  I detest this.  Never, in all my years of working have I been forced to apply, jobs always came along within a few weeks.  

The paper looks bleak, the agencies all say they are overloaded with resumes and I am faced with swallowing my pride and asking for assistance.  Even so, with the amount of people on unemployment, it is taking 4 to 6 weeks for paperwork to be processed.  It's a good thing we have some cushion, how do people make it if they have no backup?  Six weeks is a LONG time when your trying to feed a family.

The first puppy leaves tommorrow for his new life in Canada.   The couple are driving down to pick him up, they are so excited.   This is the sad part of having a litter..watching them all leave.   I think we are keeping one, not sure which one yet, I have it narrowed down to 2 finalists!

Well, it's almost 6am, the sun is bright in the sky and daylights a wastin!  
3/21/2009 6:44:28 AM
Puppies!    Finally have arrived.  Mom and kids doing great, but it was rough at first.  Instinct is not always instant, but once it kicked in, it's amazing to watch.

I don't care how many litters you raise, each one is magical. 

1/18/2009 8:54:01 AM
When I find the time to read here, something as of late is popping up more and more...and is a little disturbing.

Dominant men using the word "Master" as part of their name, or women using "FW" or "Mistress".  

It's almost as if they are insecure of their own standing and must wear a beacon, because their actions don't merit the label.   They don't want others to mistakenly address them.  

When someone introduces themself to me as "Hi, I am Free Woman so and so"... I tend to back away and take a harder look.  Nine times out of ten, I can find fault with their self analysis.  Usually, the harder one tries to force themselves into a mold, the more slippery it becomes.

1/2/2009 9:21:32 AM
New Year, shiney new penny.  While one part of our life is shed, another opens anew. 
Kharma is truly good to those who are good in spirit, to everyone else, ya might want to avoid dark alleys.

Snow is falling again, just when the streets had cleared of all the previous storm.  Hopefully this won't last, there are things to do!  

Wishing everyone a blessed, healthy and prosperous 2009! 
12/27/2008 5:35:25 PM
I keep thinking of that song, "somebody's watching me".    My posts on the forums vanish, no reason left, nothing.  Poof, gone.

I had a youtube video sent to me and I thought it was appropriate for the gorean forum, the young men were talking about turning the tables on feminism and regaining control in their relationships. 

The link was provided and the post was removed.   If there was a reason, it would be real nice if it was shared so the same mistake wasn't made in the future.

I'm just saying....
12/18/2008 7:16:14 AM
SNOW!   About a foot so far, with more to come during the day.  Only having experience with this white stuff in California, when we would drive hours to reach it...I am still excited to see it on the ground.  

Of course, the dog is less then thrilled as he has to make snail trails in the coldness.  Even that is fun to watch!


I listened to the news this morning, big mistake, and they spoke of going after credit card companies.  That didn't bother me, because I like the part about having interest rates watched a little more closely.  What did irk me, was the part about "they need to do something to prevent people from getting so far in debt".    *bangs head on keyboard".
Here's a thought...don't use the card.   I realize some folks have guns held to their heads and are "forced" to buy that cashmere sweater...even though they can't truly afford it.   But honestly, how can we instill any sort of responsibility in our youth if they see bailouts all the time?  Whats the message of the year...do what you want even if you know it's wrong, someone will come along to save you from yourself.
12/7/2008 6:48:04 AM
There is alot to be said for waiting until the last minute.   Awesome sales on Christmas  goodies!   We hit Lowes yesterday and while the selection was seriously depleted, everything was 50 percent off...woohoo!  Since our tree doesn't go up until this weekend it worked out just fine.   


I love a roaring fire, with that comes the danger of dried out trees and that's no good.   So, we typically wait a week at least after turkey day to bring home the foliage.  Before that a day is spent putting out the various items that fill a living room and scream "Christmas"!   It's a magical moment, opening up all the plastic totes and seeing things that have been packed away for 12 months.  This time of year is warm, fuzzy and filled with happy memories.    Think I will bake some cookies today.
12/2/2008 7:55:49 AM
Have you ever stumbled onto something and realized..this is it! 

For years, ever since meeting my husband, I have felt out of place.  I craved to be pleasing to him, his happiness was my utmost goal.   I was a slave prior to our union and while I struggled with the "be pleasing to all free" concept, I always felt right at home when it came to seeing that he was pleased.  Ok..still battling, after being "freed".  

He is still my primary purpose in life, seeing him happy and well tended to is what I strive for.  A friend steered me towards "surrendered wife".   A book, that amid much joking from those who don't agree...struck a deep chord within me. 

I love housework, baking, sewing and the sound of laughter he makes when a joke is shared.  I am a surrendered wife.  Other men, if not within his circle, really don't motivate, however if they are friends, because it pleases him, I see they are well fed and tended to. 

Finally.  I have reached a place where I feel comfortable.   A definition that fits and isn't plagued with "what if" questions.

fenyxxx
 
 Age: 25
 Netherlands